Graduation...

What do you do when your ex-husband tells you that there aren't enough tickets for you to go to your step-daughter's high school graduation?

Cry.

That's what I did, cry. In fact, I went through all the stages of feeling hurt; crying, annoyed, and anger.

I know deep down that she isn't purposely not giving me a ticket, but it completely hurt my feelings. Someone tried to tell me to NOT let it hurt my feelings...really?! No, it does hurt my feelings and that's ok. I am never going to let my step-daughter know how much she crushed me but she is going to know that I am disappointed. I am not going to make her feel worse than I know she already does. However, she is clueless and should understand to some extent...

Lastly, just because I am sitting here crying for an hour about this doesn't mean I need to go to therapy!!!!!!!!!

It's been a beyond long day. A coworker of mine has cancer and another friend was admitted to the hospital...then you add this to the top!

Life is what you make of it but it's too damn short! I am hoping for a better day tomorrow.

It's My Life...

I am sure that most people when they start a blog think long and hard about the layout, title, WHAT THEY ARE GOING TO WRITE ABOUT, etc.

Not me! This blog has been and is more like an online journal than anything else for me. It's been a place where I have been able to vent all of my fears, emotions, faults, etc. Hell, I don't even think people read it and I'm ok with that.

So, that's why I decided to change the name and description up a bit! And who knows maybe I change it again tomorrow... Yes, my emotions are still raw but there not ripe...if you know what I mean. I'm still a 30 something year old mom whose marriage didn't work but I'm trying to be a happy 30 something year old SINGLE mom.

Let's just say I'm searching for inner peace and happiness. Anyone know where I can find that??? I'm on the hunt.

Beautiful Day...

Today was a beautiful day.

I took a yoga class, went to a movie, did a little shopping, and went to see a beautiful baby girl who was just born today!!!

I say today was a total success!!! After a day like this I am ready for summer...forget Spring Break! I want a whole two months off...I know selfish. :)

I just want to get in a routine of being happy with myself and I struggle each and everyday with this. I have to remind myself to stay focused but sometimes you just get distracted with stupid shit.

I don't want to be distracted anymore! I want to be happy...not miserable, grumpy, angry, frustrated, etc.

So, as my fabulous day was taking place I vowed that today be the start of something different! I want to care more about how I look, I want to be happy with the small things, and I want to let go of the crap which I have surrounded myself with.

I know I can do this! But as anyone knows it takes time for change to actually happen. It takes time, patience, and practice for things to change.